Still slacking but not as badly

Yeah. I have shined my sink. I am finally able to do some laundry. I am trying to get back on top of my routine since we were gone for like a week. It really isn't that easy to jump right in and get started again. I am still half-stepping the full process. There are just some things I cannot bring myself to do...like drink a lot of water every day. Some of the reasons are financial, whereas some are just me being stubborn and fighting against change.

The water one is more financial. Our water SUX and so we buy water. If I drink all the water, there is none for my son or his food *he cant drink it, either*. I try to drink some of the water I boil, but it's extremely foul tasting. The only person that can stand it is my husband.

Eating more fresh veggies is a financial one, too. Produce is not cheap by a long shot so buying fresh is just not an option very often. The one thing we buy a lot is bananas, which make my stomach hurt like nobody's business. I can put them in things like pancakes, but just to roll up and eat one is a big no-no.

Anything else *besides the water, laundry, and veggies issues* is pretty much me being stubborn. I will work my way through it, though.

I suck

that is all....

FLYlady principal: set a bedtime

As much as I would LOVE to go to bed at ten every single night, it is virtually impossible with my husband's schedule. When he works nights, I might not get to bed till 3 in the morning. When he works days, I might get to bed by midnight. Some nights my body just can't do it and I end up asleep by 12. Even if I could go to sleep by ten at night when he works nights, he would wake me up when he gets home. ... .. .. so you see my dilemma? I would rather stay awake longer then crash instead of being woken up to have to fight myself back to sleep later.

FLYing: dropping the ball

Yeah the last two days I think I got burned out on cleaning. Why? Well the Man decided it was time to go through 2 of 4 closets. We did the other 2 closets before. He is not a one thing at a time person, he is an all or nothing person. I got so tired and overwhelmed! Now I have had dishes in my sink for 2 days. There are still dishes to put away in my dishwasher. To top it all off, my knees decided they didn't like me anymore...probably from hauling and pulling those two days it took to clean out the closets...and then I couldn't really stand up for any length to do anything.

Right now I have a knee brace on each knee and I am sitting here wishing that I could do more than stare at the crap that is starting to pile up already!

flylady principal: laundry every day

I wish I could do a load a day! Unfortunately, I have to plan my laundry around a number of factors, and therefore cannot.

First, there is no washer/dryer allowed in my apartment. Second, the one next door costs 3$ to wash/dry one load of clothes. Get my drift? Then when I do get a roll of quarters, I try to get 4 loads done at once (I usually have other quarters stashed somewhere to make the roll + quarters = 4 loads = 12$). Lastly, there are 2 washers and 2 dryers next door. If someone else is in there already, there goes my day for laundry!

Also, mind you that by the time I get to the point I can do 4 loads I usually have 5 or 6 waiting to be done. Most of those are children and husband clothes, as they change more frequently than I do. The Man has to dress for work, after work, bed, and work out. The Kid dresses for bed, activities, after activities, and workout (jiu jitsu). I dress for bed and the day and that pretty much sums it up. The Man works like 5 days a week and can workout or do his class any number of days out of a 7 day week. The Kid goes to class two or three times a week.

So I am learning to adapt flylady to work with my conflicts and so far, so good.
I am doing day 11 babysteps today, so off I go to write my inspirational sheets ;)

i know it's been a long time

I havent been here in ages it seems. My sister is now nearly 7 months pregnant. I am still NOT trying to get pregnant. So much has been going on. I just can't even tell you all of it.

I have some more random thoughts that are coming through my head since beginning Flylady.net again and getting into actually loving myself. I will have to come over here and share about it. This seems to be the place I like to vent all my transforming thought spirals, anyway.

I have been on FLYlady for about 2 weeks now and getting into the swing of things, but my body and mind are at odds. I find that my heart BUCKS routine like a mad bull in rodeo season. I know that I can follow one for a short amount of time (like a few months) but after that, it dies to me. I had my son on a gorgeous routine, and now we are kind of willy nilly. It's just too much control, I think. My mind can't deal with all the control over myself and other people, especially not my son.

I grew up in all kinds of control, so I guess that's the residual effect popping through. Chores were mandatory, but also punishment. I was just saying to my husband how I will not be able to give my son extra chores as penance for wrongful deeds. It's why I can't clean a bedroom, abhor washing dishes, and generally cannot declutter anything. Hence, the reason I am all up in FLY.