No more babies?

Well I started going to therapy. With the diagnosis and treatment options available... well... it may be necessary for me to have to go on meds at some point. This means that I will have to get on birth control of some sort.

Meds + pregnancy = big ol' mess.

Can't chance it.

Either way, it would not be a good idea for me to get pregnant again for the sheer mental repercussions it will cause. I went into PPP (postpartum psychosis) last time. I know for a fact that if I did have a daughter out of the next pregnancy, it would not be good for us, due to my issues even and especially after the PPP has subsided.

If you have no clue what I am talking about, you can read more on the subject here.

4 Months since the first M/C

Well actually my 2nd and 3rd M/Cs. It's 4 months today. I think it's time to stop grieving the loss of my babies...

Today also marks 2 years since my grandmother passed.

2 has always been a bad number for me...but today I only mourn her. Hopefully next year I won't feel like this about babies or grandmom and I can just move on with my life.