Miscarriage/Loss Support forums

Here are the places that I have been going rather frequently to get help:

Miscarriage Support

TTC after Miscarriage

Silent Grief

Finished losing

I finally stopped bleeding last night. It was another 9 days in total that I bled, just like with my first miscarriage. I am already ovulating again. I can feel it and it hurts more than it did before. I am going to wait one full cycle before trying again. I want to make sure I know exactly what I am doing and when is the best time to do it. No pressure, though. I know it won't take long for me to get to my viable pregnancy and then to my daughter finally being in my arms.

Letting Go & Moving on

I have finally dealt with my anger and forgave some things. I had to let go of it. It was eating me alive. That has changed into determination. I am now determined to try again. Determined to be successful and have my daughter. I am determined to win. That might sound a little crazy, but it makes perfect sense to me. I have carried a baby far enough to be born healthy, and I can do it again.

I will be taking good care of myself in preparation to succeed. It's all I can do. I know that this pregnancy was a primer, as was my first miscarriage before my son. It taught us the lessons we needed to learn. Next time will be different. Next time I won't lose.

Still Cramping

I am still cramping, still bleeding. I am still hurting, suffering. It's the hardest thing I have had to deal with since losing my grandmother. I started a song, but I can't finish it. I have a poem that doesn't feel right. I just want something to feel right. When will I be ready to try again? Will I ever be ready? The pain is all too present right now.

I have to call my doctor tomorrow. I was supposed to have blood drawn on the 6th but didn't go. The bruise on my arm is too big and it's the only place they can get good veins. This is all I have left of my former child. Bruises, blood, and pain.

Helpful Links about Miscarriage

• Miscarriage Statistics
• Information & Articles
• "Our Miscarriage" info site
• Coping with loss, babycenter
• Coping, americanbaby
• Coping, epigee
  

23: the number of the dead

At least it is for my baby. They tell me that I should go in on the 6th to have another blood test done to see if this is all just a fluke or whatever. I kind of already know that my HCG level will be at zero when I get the results. The people at the hospital couldn't even get a positive urine test for pregnancy on me this time. A clueless nurse just popped in with that lovely information, infuriating the nurse that had been taking great pains not to upset me. The doctor removed a bunch of tissue that I would have lost anyway. I am still losing tissue and blood. I started last night and it just got worse overnight. I am still having hella cramping. I am so heartbroken that I can't even breathe. I can't mourn, as my son is still looking me in my face. I don't know what I am going to do now. I just don't know.